nhenhe random thoughts again fml

I cant breathe.
I cant.
I cant move.
I cant.
I cant think.
I cant move.
All I see is red. It's all around me, everywhere. It's too dark.
I cant move.
I dont know where to go. Endless search for perfection always ends in destruction.
Blood, is everywhere. in my hands. oh my hands...I'm drowning in it. There's so much of it...too much....I'm drowning in lies and blood and i cant get out of it. I cant breathe nor swim nor...anything. Red pain of everyone i have ever hurt...
"the awkward moment u realize u have a heart and it beats" what kind of sorcery is this? what did you do? Why? feelings are nothing but pain.
I dont want to be the one to break you. i won't. i cant.
lets just not end up dead, yes? And I mean both of us.