"When you can't stop thinking about someone...maybe they were supposed to be there...."

Why is it that when you feel like about to fall apart, the saddest song starts playing?
When you feel like the nightmare's over....you have a sweet dream that makes you worry more?
When everyone acts nice...you know there's something wrong?...

Regrets, anyone?

Again and again I find myself dwelling in past shadows...
I search in this year's memories for something positive. My love, only you.
For everything else is a big FAIL.
Away from family.
Away from friends.
Away from love.
Away from...civilization? Absolutely
Each day that goes by since I'm stuck in this end of the world seems like an all-new mind-numbing anesthesia.
Oh but how can I even think of saying that I was never the perfect little girl wearing pink?
It's not fair how people have to choose the path they will have their entire life at....14 years old....
-and then they say "oh at least if I had known...." but they don't know. No one cares about giving them a sample of what the future will be. no one ever warns them than this is not a game and it cannot be reseted and played again.
Uh nice, such deep thoughts...like...
Nice people that say nce stuff. Like "Do not worry, I will be there for you whenever u need"
So why is it, that when I cry, I'm always alone? No one's there to give me a blanket to run away from the cold...and no one's there to hold my hand when I seek for the blade, and no one's ever there to hold my forehead when my heart tries to escape trough my mouth, away from the suffering.
When the time comes, there are no friends, no sisters, no lovers around. And one struggles alone just to keep the pieces of oneself in place...or what a mess it would be...

Saudade

Odeio que não estejas aqui agora para poder afogar-me em ti e esquecer-me de mim....

 

há demasiadas pessoas de kem sentir falta...

 

há demasiada dor nas saudades...

 

friends...allies...sisters....lovers.....

 

(to all the ones that matter or mattered...). 

Pain Addiction

"sympaths cry red"
once upon a time there was a little girl who fell for a wolf in the lamb's skin.
then she fell for the evil soldier in the elf's skin.
then she found a white winged angel that was righteous, and sweet, and caring, and everything good.
but she was so used to the suffering that she couldnt live without it.
and now she thinks of hurting him just so that it will hurt her more. By arguing on purpose. By acting coldly.
just so that it will hurt her more.
funny isnt it?

random

that's when she said:

I don't hate you boy, I just wanna save you while there's something left to save

that's when he said:

I love you girl, but I'm not the answer for the questions you still have...

Sem palavras.....

"My snow princess, my diva, some things are too strong to be controlled, I'm sorry I am this way, I just feel like I have to protect you, your soul, heart, and body for the rest of my life, I need to, its a need, your not just "a girl", your the one, the one who I dedicate my life to, the one who I will be always there for anything, no matter what happens, I trust you, I respect you, I'm yours."

by: JotaC <3

AMOTE

Estou a pensar que mudei imenso desde que começei a falar contigo
Estou a pensar que mudei tanto...que sou mais eu.
que agora posso olhar o sol de frente, sem medo de ser vista.
E penso que agora posso sorrir....e sei que nunca mais a solidão.
Por uma vez em....tanto tempo....acredito que a realidade é melhor que o sonho...
E agora compreendo aqueles casais que são capazes de não enjoar de fofice e romance xD
tão bem que já nem escrevo nd d jeito xD